I AM WATER

A kaleidoscope,
I bleed color.

I am the red
in my panties
the morning after

a grab
and a twich
and now

you must leave

(Now, now
and with me
unsatisfied?)

….yes, here
we are once
more, a reprise

Did you think
of it again, of
me, as the rain
prodded you
to stay in bed?

The shape of
my heart, a
pulsing bruise

eludes me
like the taste
of your tongue

the way your lips
would meet mine—

if you would
let them

but no
no, instead
we bite hands
lick teeth

Beneath your
languid cool
lies a shiver

(a quietshiver)

like the lifting
of a blanket
in the dawn
of early spring

And you thought
you could hold me

yes yes

I sense it.

It stirs my soul
from madness

the affirmation
of your need
into which I
breathed life

(I am Creator)

I can bite away
my want, keep
it caged behind
my teeth

Prove it, you dare

Trace the color
of need.

my mouth opens
and closes, desicated
in its solitude

you said you would
you said…

(Don’t you understand?)

as if I were
a thing to touch

no no
I will elude
you, eternal

I thought
we were one—

I am the soft
bud of a bloodroot
opening—o—o
pening

slowly

like your lips,
so wavering

resistant to my
fingers in spite
of your need

to part them
with my thumb
and let them

saturate
in the sun…

(Kiss me,
you’ve already sinned
at least once)

I undress, alone.

I let down my
hair, liquid
tendrils for
you to hold

I float,

wanting for flesh
on my diaphragm

I am the unborn
bud, needing only
a drop of water—

a taste of
your tongue,mouth

and more sun

no no

these forms
afford me
no good

I seek another
in which to cloak
this human form,

this pink flesh…

(Can you decipher)
me like this?

Will you find
a body amid
the shape I take
as I crawl

towards you
there

elbow by inch—

or just a shadow
in the sheets?

I myself am
not immune
to the light.

You will try
to find me
there
(my God, you will)

with no eyes
to watch

But
no esoteric mode
no meditation,

(though you
scream your
most guttural
plea through the
blinded dark—arrr
aahhhhh)

nothing
of form

can help you
understand

All the shapes
my body takes

when

I become
water